NS

hmmm... church gives you time to think(and babe watch)... it's one of the few moments in the week where i'm actually get to sit down and let my mind run instead of being occupied with the computer and reading. I do pay attention during church, like how today's sermon was about this special kid with Global Delay syndrome and how her family has experienced so much of God's grace. But there are times when you just zone out and go through the actions. So today somewhere after communion and before the thanksgiving part of mass, i started thinking about the past 2 years in my life and how i haven't bitched about it in my blog! Well, this could be largely due to the fact that i started blogging after NS...
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But it seems that that spark to write my whole NS life just disappeared. So guess i'll put it off till later. I'm pretty good at procrastinating but i'll get to that later... Well, i'm pretty impressed with what i did the past week. After waiting 3 months, i dragged myself to get my ic redone because my picture is really too old. Took me only an hour to get everything done so that was good. Then went down to Bras Basah Complex to get Gillian's banned printed. But the prices were a bt steep and they only printed on PVC whilst i thought gillian wanted it on cloth.

The good thing about being so free is that you forget the days. It feels so good to not know that today is wednseday or monday or thursday. So i don't really remember what i did the next few days i think. Oh, i finished the scrapbook. Now only to print out the captions but my 7 year old printer CMI so going to look for a new printer soon. Hopefully within the next 2 weeks i'll get it done...

Erm, then went down for scouts on friday. Seems like i'll be doing it every friday. And because i'm too lazy to type out what happened, here's what daryl wrote and i somewhat agree with him. Those parts in blue however will be my comments. Thanks a lot dude!!

"something is just plagueing me today. when i went back to help the scouts, the one thing alot of the juniors agreed on that was missing from scouts, was fun.

i hear that and think to myself, if scouts weren't fun, why would Reuben and i be going back for camps and to assist them? i sure as hell wouldn't be going back to an activity i hated back in sji.
but then i think, maybe things ARE becomming to rigid. there's no room for fun to happen. everything is training based or award based. no wonder the boys hate it. (but i think they're too slack now.. and too afraid to get screamed at)

i guess from some point of view i know where the boys are coming from. eveything is training training training. punishment punishment punishment. sec 4s screwing them, ventures screwing them, daryl and reuben screwing them. perhaps that does need to change? (no. i had fun even with all these people breathing down my neck. The scouts now are just pussies)

personally, i think how reuben and i work in scouts is very different from how we did back in sec 4. ask any of the boys who had me as their senior. things are done with the boys in mind, and safety is really #1 on our list, but is even that enough? carrot or stick? (stick... a very big and thick one... you can use the carrot to hit them too, just that it'll break)

all i know is something needs to be done to solve this problem. the thing is, the sec 4s themselves are too inexperienced to do anything (and it's hard enough work running the unit). the ventures are too busy viewing the boys as generally incompetents (which may not be far from the truth, from certain angles). the scouters aren't hands on enough to know what's going on at the ground level. so who does it fall to? do i really want the responsibility of bringing back our values to fall on me?

i guess if there's one thing in life i feel very passionately about, it's my scout unit. my best and worst times in life happened in there. to think that boys could go through 4 years of being in the unit and come out saying "i hated it" or "it wasn't fun" just pains me. (ditto)

maybe things need to be instilled from sec 1. just like it was with us. maybe that would change things"

I love my scout unit. And it's quite sad to see how they're performing right now. I know it's always the case of seniors going "Oh, in my days..." and stuff like that. I hate people who do that. Hypocritical? At least i'm doing something to change it and i'm glad Daryl's going to help me out with it. Skills wise, standards have dropped a little. Not to brag, but i can safely say that i knew the most and i think i still do but just a bit rusty. But it's scary to see the sec 3's who are going to take over in 2 weeks not having the necessary scouting skills to train the others and effectively run the unit. I want to strangle those buggers and freaking reformat their brains. I'll freaking teach them everything i know from scout standard to CCA. because i want them to be the best. But not everyone is crazy about scouts as i am. I guess that there will be many changes in the unit now since daryl and i are going to be back. And with the Sec 3's taking over, we can start anew. Hmmm... I just hope that i can commit myself enough when school starts so that it won't look like some half fuck effort. And there's a competition at the end of the year. I want to beat damn Cat High... VS is a slight threat and so is dunman high i think. The rest of the schools i.e. ACS fucks, RI and Chinese High, don't bother competing... Coz you're going to get the most 4th place... You've been warned. Die bitches